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#40

2012-02-09T15:50:00.002+08:00

Today have been a pretty productive day. Studied or more like did 2 econs tutorials and now I'm going to watch an episode of pretty little liars before starting on my accounting revision. Meh. I'm running out of time but I'm kinda back on schedule so I guess its fine.

I sent my laptop for repair yesterday and now I don't have a laptop to really blog when it's late at night. I have a desktop outside my room and because it's outside my room so I'm lazy to walk out and blog then go back to my room. Okay, I'm just lazy okay!

Played around with the effects on my webcam and stuff and hahah, the pictures should keep you entertained for a bit. Byeeeee.

#38

2012-02-07T20:51:00.002+08:00

This week has been kind of a bad week. Everyday seems to be worst than yesterday and I guessed today is the worst of all. Oh to think, today is just the third day of the week, Sunday is like the first day of the week to me?

First off, I broke my laptop screen because I dropped it when I accidentally fell asleep. And so tada, the laptop fell from my bed onto the ground. Then today I had to plan some revision timetable thing and I got tons of shitty time slots so its more like you are left with no choice but to get shitty time slot and so my revision lessons timetable turns out pretty shitty.

I guess that's not the worst.

I might seem petty saying this but this is something that totally bother me, A LOT. Right, to begin with, I am not emo. Neither am I not seeing the good in life nor am I choosing to believe in the bad of people. I truly believe that there are good aspects to my life, like I have a place to live, food to eat, school to study, sufficient money to spend, and occasionally friends who will listen to me grumble about what I deemed "petty" stuff, oh and when I get a seat on the bus. I am truly grateful to all these in life and I'm not that really negative person but I choose to believe in what I see.

I think this is karma. I think I have neglected my friends a lot when I'm secondary school. I think I am once the person who thinks my friends will always be there and so, I don't put in twice as much effort in maintaining a friendship. But ever since Poly, I experienced and have realized the importance of friends and have also learnt that people won't forever be there for you or be with you for your whole life no matter how many times they say, "I'll always be there for you./We'll always be friends forever."

What I learnt in sociology class yesterday - Humans are egoistic, they are greedy, selfish and self centered. People constantly want better things, meet new people in life. I was once that kind of person. I constantly want to make new friends, want new things but then I realized that old friends are always the best. They are once there, have been there and will always be there for you. When I say old friends, I mean secondary school friends I met. Not all of them but people whom I have brought me with away from that place will forever stay. They might want to meet new people, have new stuff but they still remember the good about their old friends.

Sadly, some people don't.

I think I have changed to be a better friend. I think I have been kind of a good friend to people whom I truly treat as my friend. If they need my help, I'll be there to help if I can. I don't mind taking that detour to accompany them for a few more minutes if they need to talk etc. I think I have given a lot of me to friendships than anything else in this world, not even that much when I'm in a relationship.

But what do I even receive back in the end. Emptiness at the end of the day.

Sometimes I feel that I have given too much of me that I feel people are taking me for granted. I don't necessarily have to take the detour to accompany you, I don't necessarily have to give you a lift home, I don't necessarily have to listen to you, but I do and I did. But so what? Do people even appreciate without being told, or they just forget at the end of the day?

I said, I would rather have no friends than to be surrounded by a bunch of fake people and that when I'm with them, I have to fake a smile. Because I am so so so tired.

Leos are pretty egoistic and they have tons of pride in them. I am not blaming it on horoscope but instead I'm admitting that yes I won't admit I'm upset about certain stuff, I won't admit that I feel left out, I won't admit that I think you have forgotten me as friend or that I feel like I'm much less important to you now than before, I won't admit that I am sad that we don't hang out like together in the past, I won't admit that sometimes I wished you would go that extra mile for me like how I would have done so for you.

There are a ton more stuff that I won't admit and right now I feel slightly a tad better because I have admitted so much stuff that I wouldn't have admitted if I have done it face to face.

I am not implying or am I referring to anybody in particular. I am just telling all my friends how I feel at this particular moment. True feelings.

I am not asking anyone for more attention but I just want my friends to know, how I truly feel, probably every time when we are hanging out and when we are not.

I shouldn't continue anymore before this look like a duper emo post which seriously, it isnt.

#36

2012-02-06T02:20:00.007+08:00

I am really a bad person but pardon me, I technically didn't skip a day but just updating this space a tad bit late, like maybe late as in a few hours after 5th Feb already. But seriously, its the thoughts that counts. I was busy writing my sociology paper just now, have to hand it up tomorrow which is super bad. I shouldn't be doing any more last minute work but oh well.

Imma going to cheat a bit more by updating everything I did over the past 3 days in a row cause I didn't take much pictures.

On thursday, met Rueychyi and went out to sing kkkk! It's a stress reliever thing that I kinda like to do. All you do is really to sing at the top of your voice and you feel better but kbox is freezing cold as always. Why do they have to blast their aircon like it's free?!?!

After that I met Jj for dinner and we has Astons at Sembawang shopping centre. They had Daiso there and so obviously, I bought tons of stuff again. :)

Woke up early on Saturday to help Jiaying prepare for her surprise birthday celebration party for her boyfriend! After that JJ and me had to go somewhere else so we have to leave early. :(

Had KFC and I love their egg tartsssssssssssssssssssss! Okay I am getting hungry nao! :/ Then at night I met Rueychyi and we went for Sushan's birthday party. Oh oh oh, I drove to Sushan's house and I nearly died. I can't really multi-task when I'm driving so I have to concentrate, like 100% concentration. But then JJ had to give me last minute instructions and so I panicked and then I just exit the highway abruptly. Apparently there are cars coming and worst of all a group of TPs coming which I was supposed to give way but I didn't. Soooo, I panicked and I almost dash across the red light while the TPs are behind me.

Almost died seriously.

Today I was supposed to stay at home and do my sociology paper and some revision but apparently I didn't. I woke up and decided that I should clean my room and after that I decided that I should not start on my school work, instead I went baking at JJ's house.

MINI BITES! AWESOME! :D

Good old recipe book that JJ have. This is really an old treasure. Hahah.

Right. I didn't really bake. :/ I just sit there and eat which is my whole point. So I came home and napped for a hour before starting on my school work. Now I feel a bit stress cause I have so many more work not done yet but oh well, I should sleep before I wake up feeling even more angsty and shitty.

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE! :D

#35

2012-02-04T23:27:00.001+08:00

I was on twitter and I saw people trying to make AMKSS trend. Well, AMKSS, Ang Mo Kio Secondary School, the 4 years which I missed most in my 21 years of life. There are many things I miss about that 4 years. Things like friends who truly wants to be your friends, sleeping in classes, forcing yourself to go to school, basically everything, everything that made me grow up now.

I saw that one particular tweet about Odyssey of the Mind, OM, something so close to my heart. When I always talk about my OM experience to another party, they don't exactly understand what I actually went through, what I felt and why I missed everything about it.

That excitement and nervousness you feel when you are sitting there waiting for results and know what, when you actually won champion, gawd, I really don't know how words can describe all these feelings I went through.

If I can go through all these again I would. But then, now no one wants to go and no ones will understand why it's so important to me.

Time to sleep now, its a long day of work tomorrow.

GOOD NIGHTS.

#32

2012-02-01T12:07:00.008+08:00

I saw this on facebook and I thought it was quite meaningful and true, or at least it applies to me and so I grabbed it and kept it in my phone. This is so true, people who puts on the strongest front, entertain another person all day long are often those the weakest in heart. Don't leave them or take them for granted because if they choose to make you happy, you mean a lot to them so, don't ever leave them.

Didn't do much today except studying the whole day. How interesting uh. Oh I was quite obsessed with, actually not instagram but myself, so I like to take pictures of myself. HAHAH. Right, no. I am kinda obsessed with instagram but not that obsessed y'know. Hahah.

Pictures all taken with my iphone and just so happen that most of the pictures is my face. Lol. :D

#31

2012-01-31T23:04:00.005+08:00

Today, I don't really have anything happy to talk about and neither do I have the feel to post backdated pictures. Right now, all I am feeling is bad mood.

And I'm pretty sure what I'm gonna say or might say later will be the most truthful opinions I could ever give in my entire life, just because I'm in a really bad mood now. Usually, I give the most truthful opinions when I'm in a bad mood because I don't really give a shit about how other people feel about me. Seriously, get a life and stop judging people.

Right. My mood is literally like a rollar coaster ride today. Upz and downz. Been thinking and not thinking a lot about the ultimate one and only things in life that would bother me the most - FRIENDS.

I think I have been a pretty awesome friend when I really treat that person as friend and also, once been the worst friend one could ever have. Either way, I had my goods about being a good friend and karma for being a bad one.

Only in friendships, I believe in karma. What I have done to others, one day will come back to me. I just don't know when. Karma.

But when I truthfully tell you, I treat you as my good friend, I really do, from the bottom of my freaking heart and not saying for the sake of saying. There's not really a definition on how I think my friend should be like. If we clique we clique, and if we don't, then too bad for you. So I won't really define who who who as a suitable "candidate" for my friend.

However, every living creature should have the common sense to know WHAT YOU SHOULD DO AND WHAT YOU SHOULDN'T DO. Like, don't cross the line with your words, if you are going to get offended by saying this, why do you even want to let it out of your freaking mouth. You shouldn't make empty promises. Don't say you will always be there but you don't. Like say say only, I also know. -.- Oh, DON'T EVER USE SOMEONE. Please, get a life. Using someone to get somewhere, seriously? Brainless fuckers.

All these don't bother me that much that would irritate me to the max. The one thing which seriously pisses me off is that, people take others for granted. You think your friends will always be there and so you don't have to care any longer, bother to talk to them or ask them out? Or now that you found someone better and so you know what, you move on to the other newer better friend that you have? Honestly?

I hate being taken for granted. I hate it when people say, our friendship will never change no matter where I am, what I do or who I'm with, we'll be best friend forever. Seriously? I believe that such things happen but right now, NOBODY BOTHERS ANYMORE.

Everyone just care about themselves. Everyone just want something or someone better and they move on. Yeah. I am being negative about life now but seriously, how positive can you be when this is the truth, this is what I see in people.

I think I have no friends. I think when I'm down, I don't have anybody to fall back on. I think I'm saying this is not because I really don't have any friends, or anyone to talk to, is that right now when I think back, how many people I have once told that they are my good and true friends whom I trust and likes to be around with have left or move on to someone better, intentionally or unintentionally. Is it me? Or what's wrong with the world?

My true friends now, probably 1 or 2. Don't even need 2 hands to count. Hah.

This is life.

I don't do well groups. I like one to one interaction or when I'm out with like just one friend a time. Only during that time people are able to catch up. Sometimes I feel empty in a big group of people cause people feel left out. I feel left out.

But oh well, this is life.

I have tried so hard to reconnect with so many people, one to one, but nobody cares, nobody is willing to do the same like we have done before. Do you even still remember what I have done for you or this friendship or all you care now is your new friends?

Everybody move on as time pass by. This is really life.

This goes out to everyone. Whether you are now my friend, once my friend or never my friend.

#30.2

2012-01-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

#30.1

2012-01-30T21:13:00.003+08:00

I am such a bad blogger, I know I am supposed to be blogging everyday but, ahhhh, I ran out of topics and I have nothing else to blog about. Sooooo, I'm here to continue and I promise I will blog everyday from today onwards. Hehh. I have a list of things planned out on what I want to blog about already.

So this is about the 2nd day of CNY. We went to a few houses for house visiting and this is the outfit of our day. :D My sister and I were both in black which is bad, but we have nothing to wear, plus my dad bought my whole outfit for me, so I had to wear it.

There's nothing much else to really talk about the 2nd day of CNY except that we went out for dinner with my mum's side of the family. And look at that huge ass lou hei. Gawddddddddddd!

Hahah.

And I'll be uploading a video I did with my sister on the 2nd day of CNY. Freaking funny! hehe.

#23.2

2012-01-23T23:19:00.004+08:00

This is the best video of the three we shot today. If you don't want to listen to us talk crap please at least scroll to the tongue twister part which is somewhat at the last few minutes (Starting 4.59!) of the video. No joke, its so funny that I cried and almost pee in my pants.

Oops.

Hahah :)

These two are equally funny as well. Hahahah. LMAO!

#23.1

2012-01-23T21:10:00.011+08:00

First off, Happy new year to everyone! :D Basically, I was supposed to blogged on 21st but seriously, I forget why I didn't. Either I am too tired or I have nothing to blog. I don't know man. I think I will sum everything up in one post and tada, it's gonna be a super long post.

I woke up pretty late on CNY eve when supposingly, I need to wake up early to help out in the preparation for the reunion dinner. Meh. I did help anyway but before that, I had to go out and do some last minute CNY clothes shopping since my dad was feeling generous that day. Hehh.

Went bugis to get my levis jeans and we walked over to Haji lane cause my sister wanted to get a bag. Oh, the bag was at 2 for $60 but she wanted me to get something as well, so she suggested that she will pay for $40 and I will just have to pay for $20 for the bag which we were supposed to pay $30 each. Anyway, one bag just cost only $36.90, but since she suggested and it's a bargain, so why not. Right now, I have like 3 bags for school. :/

Had dinner around 6ish? Mannn, too little food & I wasn't that full as I would be like the last few years. I rather eat in at home than to go wait at some restaurant for like 2 hours before we get to eat.

Halfway through the dinner, my sister decided that she wants to be retarded. Okay, more like we are two people being retarded. Haha. I named out a few situations and she had to posed according to how she feel on the situation. So here you go. Hahah.

And tada, the first day of CNY which is today. As usual, people will gather at my grandparent's place and reunite? I don't know. I am running out of things to say. Aya, peekturesss.

That's really all for today except that my sister and me did some really crazy videos which is so worth your time watching. But youtube is taking too long to upload the videos soooooooo I will post a separate entry.

OMG! CANNOT WAIT!

Shall go do accounts now. Yeah, on CNY! Sad life :(

#21.1

2012-01-21T15:36:00.003+08:00

Favourite new year goodieeee! I can't stop eating this which is really bad. So, I didn't post yesterday which made me felt really gulity but seriously, I don't have much to say since I basically cleaned my whole house yesterday. I'm now gonna make a small post while scanning adeline's note and waiting for time to pass to head out to my first reunion dinner of the year.

Uh. This is how I look like after a nap. Real shitty I know. Haha. Had driving at 8am today. Praying super hard that this would be the last driving lesson ever.

Oh I was watching this show about how a family can get so excited and happy when people renovated and donated money to them. Clearly I am not in the right state of mind cause I don't even understand what I'm writing just now. But oh well, you understand.

Meh.

It made me realise that I really want to be rich so I can help more people with the money I make? I don't know man.

I shouldn't have blogged cause this is such a pointless entry that I don't even understand myself. :/

#19

2012-01-19T23:57:00.009+08:00

The reason why this picture is of so low quality is because I was pretty dumb to take a video instead of a picture. Hahah. So I had to screenshot it from the video to upload it as a picture instead of a video. This sound like a tongue twister but oh well. Such a pity, I think this is such a nice picture.

Alex brought me to one degree today. Mannnnn, it's so beautiful there. We went there to gym and then lunch. I got pretty sleepy after lunch which I honestly don't know why. So we went to walk around and took many picture.

Oh did I mention even the changing room look soooo gorgeous. I don't want to go home! :(

Met Adeline at Vivo after that to discuss on our Taiwan trip. Seriously, I cannot believe that it's happening and its happening so soon!

Dinner at Kim Gary and mannn, the portion for each serving is like HUGE?! I barely finish half of my food.

I am so tired now and I need to sleep soon. And I will sleep till late cause I finally get to sleep in. But I have to pack my room and probably some part of my house tomorrow. Haven't been studying, this is bad but seriously, life's too short.

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I am not a love guru and may not be in any position to say anything like that. But I just suddenly had these thoughts and feelings about this. So, ...

This is for you.

Love can be such a powerful, strong yet vulnerable thing. Love between two person should be special and maybe meaningful to them, in a way that it keeps them going every single day. Every different relationship is unique, it makes people grow up, learn something and become better each and every time. I believe one day, everyone will find that special someone who will be with them for the rest of their lives.

Don't give up on love. Love will never give up for you. If this person don't work out, it just means he/she is not for you. You may feel hurt, but don't give up. A failed relationship is an experience, a thing to teach you to be stronger. You may think you will never find another person better but, trust me you will, especially when you least expect it.

When you feel you will never get him/her, how do you know if you don't try? Don't give up if you really think he/she makes you happy. Let he/she know, make sure they know how important they are to you before you choose to give up.

After you get them, don't chuck them aside. Don't treat them like they will always be there just because you two are together now. Love may be a strong thing, but it also takes a ton of effort to make it even stronger. It's hard, but if this is not true, how are there people who will grow old together, forever.

Love can be forever, when you whole heartily love a person, you will know.

I loved you, I have loved you, I have loved you a lot & part of me will always love you.

Be strong people, don't give up. :)

#18

2012-01-18T23:06:00.006+08:00

My instructor changed my driving timing to 8am instead of 11.30am, so I had to wake up really early to go for my driving. :( Came back home, had breakfast and then go back to bed. Woke up at only 2pm when I'm supposed to meet fangying at like 3?! Rushed like a crazy woman.

Had sushi buffet & manicure + window shopping! Of course, we had to take tons and million of pictures while sitting outside Ion. Typical singaporean girls! :) We took so many that I randomly choose some of it to post. Anyway, this was taken with my iphone and ipod's front camera, so the quality is a bit mehhhhh.

Love you mama! :D:D

I'm super tired now. I am going to sleep soon. Have to wake up kinda early to pack my bag and meet Ally for gym at One degree! :D Then meeting Adeline to have dinner and discuss about the Taiwan trip. Can't believe it's happening so soon!

NIGHTY NIGHTS!

#17.2

2012-01-17T23:26:00.001+08:00

Video of yesterday finally readyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :D

#17.1

2012-01-17T20:59:00.006+08:00

Lunched at NP today and as usual, I don't know if this has become a habit or will soon become one, but I'm vlogging everywhere I go. Seriously don't know if this is a good or bad thing. But I had tons of fun out of vlogging, so this should be a more positive thing than a negative thing uh.

Anyway, I got Rueychyi and Sushan obsessed with Tiny Towers. Heheh. Now they go around playing non-stop. I finally saw how obsessed I was in them. :/

My instructor changed my driving timing to 8am instead of the 11.30am. Mehhh. Have to wake up early again. Shall sleep early tonight. I kept dozing off in class today, not a good thing!

Found random clips from the day at JJ's house. Compiled into a video and voahlaaaaa, another vlog for that day! :D

I am still very lazy to upload the friends and bag video. No time to edit. Tomorrow tomorrow! :/ And prelims are coming, I feel stress but not to the extend of having the super duper urgency to study. Hopefully after CNY I will start studying, SOON! Okaiiiii, baiiiiii! :D

Vlog for today will be uploaded after its being processed! Meh. It took 3 hours and still not done yet! :(

#16

2012-01-16T22:08:00.003+08:00

Today is about satisfying my ban mian craving once again. Basically did nothing but just vlog in school which is pretty hilarious. :) Tomorrow is my last day of my school week which I cannot wait.

Meeting up a few friends this week, can't wait to satisfy my sashimi craving and to do some last minute CNY shopping. Mehhhhh. I hate doing things last minute and I hate to shop for clothes in a rush or when there's really no feel to shop for thing. I think I am too tired, Idk what I am talking about already.

Oh oh, and I went to run today. Finally I am back to the exercising routine. Healthy lifestyle! ^^

Did many vlog today and I managed to edit and put the many clips into one video. Heh. There's still a failed friends tag and a failed what's in my bag video which I don't have time to edit and the uploading to youtube part is taking toooooooooo long.

#15

2012-01-15T23:09:00.005+08:00

That day I went to the Johor Premium Outlets but I forget to post on that day, or more like, I didn't have time to blog. So I am posting the pictures now. Lucky for these pictures, if not the entry today would be a boreeeeeee.

There's nothing much to buy over at the premium outlets actually but it's kind of a good place to be at since there isn't much people. I like it only for the peace there. Heh.

After the prenium outlets, we went over to KSL city for our late lunch and more shopping for JJ. Sushi king for lunch and I loveeeeeeeeee sushi! :D

Today I went over to JJ's house to help out in baking some chinese new year goodies. Did nothing much there except for playing with his cousin.

Anyway I am trying to live healthily so that include eating healthy. Yogurt is healthy right? :/

Nothing much for today except for the fact I woke up after 5 hours of sleep due to Idk how it came about stress in my sleep. So I felt stressed and I went to do an hour of math before I head back to bed again. Trying to really calm down and I think I need to go to bed now cause I'm really tireddddddddddddddddddd.

Bringing my camera to school tomorrow to film some videos with Rueychyi! Heheheh. Can't wait! :D

#14

2012-01-14T23:59:00.004+08:00

I cheated a bit, I seriously have the intention to blog today but y'know, I was busy the whole day and when I finally settled down to blog, its already 12.11am and so, I changed the time and date alittle. Heh. It's the thoughts of blogging that matters whatttt!

The crowd at the flea today was pretty dead, that means a lot of free time and time to camwhore and vlog! But I earned back my "capital" to set up the stall and that my "net profit" isn't negative, that's kinda impressive already. Some people at the flea don't even have a single sale. :/

Rueychyi came to visit us and obviously, bought things from us. Made use of the chance to take peekturesssss! :D

Anyway, we vloged and it was so much fun. I compiled all of the clips we took into one video. Haha. But the quality is pretty bad and the lighting was mehhhh as well. The fun is all it's about, so it doesn't really matter uh! :)

Vlog are so much easier to do than to blog in my opinion. Might consider just vlog and upload to my blog! Lol.

Oh, we saw Jiamin today and mannnn, time flies, her sister is like soooooooo grown up now. Scary how much we all changed or maybe never change for like such a long period of timeeeee.

Left the flea halfway to go for some reunion dinner thing which was kinda pretty awkward. But oh well, once a year only. Haha.

Shall end the blog post with...............................................

Video on Rueychyi doing her What's in her bag! Damn funny plueash!

NIGHTY NIGHTS!

#13

2012-01-13T22:02:00.004+08:00

I am back in Singaporeeeeeeee! :D I am actually excited to be back home, ready to get back to my daily routine! And I have million of mosquito biteesss and this is so not cool!

Anyway, today was spent massaging and eating pizza. Did I ever mention how good the pizza was? Gawd, the only thing I will miss off Batam would be the pizza! So good! Oh, the massages was good as well. 1 hour Indonesian traditional massage + 30 minutes herbal bath! Now I am really relax, all I need is to go to bed soon. I am really tired.

That's all for today. I mean, that's all I really did. Close to a hour on the ferry. Okay, I am really tired and I have to go to set up a stall at a flea tomorrow. Pray for good sales! :D

Last but not least....

GOOD NIGHT!

#12

2012-01-12T23:02:00.009+08:00

I havent posted for like 5 days and I feel so sorry to myself. Hahah. This is suppose to be a blogging everyday year but seriously, for the past 5 days I did nothing but study, staying at home and eating. So basically, I am on a routine lifestyle, except for the fact that my sleeping habit got screwed up once again. Surprise surprise.

Now I am typing this while lying on the bed in BATAM. Finally a short getaway from this stressful lifestyle. Blah.

I don't really like taking ferry or anything that will cause motion sickness. So I looked really sickly and uncomfortable while taking the ferry. :/

Finally arriving at Batam, Harris resort. They provided transportation from the ferry terminal,, but actually their resort is just a 5minute drive away. I don't know why we can't just walk.

Took their free shuttle service to their town/shopping mall. We had A&W which cause us Rp 93,000. Acting like a millionaire here. Hahah.

Message and manicure & pedicure timeeeeee. Their service is really good. They really help you do nicely and properly. Seriously, mani and pedi in Singapore is like mehhhh. Everything is so fast paced in Singapore, even service they also need to be fast.

Before going back to the resort, we bought tons of food and JCo donut which is like what, freakkinggg cheap. Rp 33,000 for 6 pieces of donuts! :D

Since we are on the "honeymoon" package, of course there ill be flowers petal on the bed and free chocolates.

And we had candlelight dinner by the pond? But the food is really good, too bad we are too full and sick to finish everything. I ate 4 donuts before dinner okayyyyyyyyyyyyy.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE End of day 1

#8

2012-01-08T23:29:00.002+08:00

Feeling super gulity now. Didn't run for a whole week and I have been sleeping past 11pm for the last few days. Super unhealthy lifestyle and I am feeling kinda grumpy now. :/ And I ate fastfood today, gulity TTM! :(

Today was pretty productive. I studied sociology in the morning, cleaned my room and did some math practice question just now. Feeling that I am somehow back on track. Hopefully it stays this way but I need a getaway. I might be going overseas this week, keeping my fingers crossed that the plan will go through.

Mehhhh.

While showering just now, I had the thoughts about... life? Like everything is possible. In other words, nothing is impossible. I think it depends on you yourself on how much you want to make something possible. I don't think I am cut out for studying but that doesn't mean getting good results is not possible for me. That means I have to work doubly hard to get it. And I did it once in poly, I can do it now again. It's this new school environment that's making me stressed. New exam rules, new place.... :(

But seriously, everything is possible. I hate it when people tell me, "Confirm cannot one la. This one so hard." If you want something, and you don't work hard for it, then what's the point. But sometimes after you work extra hard for something, you still don't get what you want, it means that there is something better for you out there.

I studied kinda hard in poly, hoping to be able to get into a local university. But I didn't. I worked hard but I didn't get it, and now, here I am, in SIM studying. I still feel discourage at times, and I think that's why I am feeling the stress and almost at the point of giving up, but thinking back now, I don't like to be in a competitive environment and I had way enough of that for 3 years, I don't want to be in that environment again. I am not a person who like to be under that MUCH stress, so this is a blessing in disguise. Now, I will work doubly hard, based on my own schedule and show people, no matter where I am, it doesn't matter. All that matters is that I prove my own capability in achieving excellent results in whatever I do and whatever that comes along.

I can do it.

#7

2012-01-07T22:45:00.006+08:00

Woke up at 5am so to be able to make it on time for the POP at the floating platform at 8am. Seriously, why must the parade starts at such an ungodly hour. And I swear, there were millions of people going down to watch the parade.

Anyway, I almost had to walked the train tunnel cause my train was delayed on the way there. But Jiaying jinxed it, and the train started moving again. Mannnnnnnnn.

So at the platform, the weather was..... H O T. Half of my face is now tanned. Heh.

I love this kinda of parade. Like it always make me want to cry. But anyway, its over. Happy POP! :D

Proud of you! :)

I was craving for pizza and so we went pizza hut for din din. Really early dinner but I was fulllllllll at the right level of satisfaction! :D Wanted to go running but in the end I choose to experiment with my make up. And so, there, the thick make up.

I really gotta go shower again, FOR THE THIRD TIME ALREADY, and then crash. I am so damnnnnnnnnnnnn tired and my house is doing spring cleaning tomorrow. Have to wake up early to do some studying but I start to clean my room.

NIGHTY NIGHTS! :D

#6

2012-01-06T20:40:00.001+08:00

I studied for the whole of today again and oh, of course I am still obsessed with tiny towers. Have been locking myself at home for the past 2 weeks or so because I ran out of cash! Seriously, no money.

Finally stepping out of my house tomorrow to go to JJ's pop. But I have to wake up at 5.30am for it. :/ Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh and finally there's pictures to post again! :D

Ahhhhhh. I have nothing to say.

GOOD NIGHTTTTTTTTTT!

#5

2012-01-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

Putting on mask now and I am lying on bed, watching tv, relaxing. Today is basically a slow day, not as productive as yesterday. Waking up at 7am is no joke, especially when I slept at 12am yesterday. I am basically, TIRED.

Shall go sleep naoooooooooooo.

#4

2012-01-04T23:55:00.003+08:00

Double posting. Wow.

But anyway, I was in bed thinking... Have I been a bad friend?

Probably yes, probably no.

Done things I shouldn't and done things that to me, made that extra mile for others.

It will be so sad if people in this world are using other people for their own benefit. Sometimes I feel sad that that I can actually feel that people are kinda doing that to me. They need info, look for me. They need someone talk to, look for me. They need something from me, look for me.

That's so sad. I mean, it's so sad that some people can be so obvious with their motive of using others, like they don't even care. If only there are only I exist in this world by myself, I will feel less sad cause at least, I am doing things out of my own strength and ability and the consequences or outcome is due to something I did on my own. Not because I need to get this shit done, and I go look for others who have the ability to do so.

The most sad part out of this is that, people don't even know how to appreciate efforts people put in for them. They don't have to get your shit done for you.

I am probably rambling. But it's true. People care for no one but themselves.

#4

2012-01-04T23:12:00.001+08:00

I have been obsessed with tiny tower, the iphone game for the whole of today. I know it has been a long released game application but come on, I am not an iphone games fanatic, I don't know alright. Hahah.

Nothing interesting happened today except for the fact that I actually ate salad as a meal today. Awesome shit for me. I have never liked eating fresh uncooked vege, let alone a bowl of uncooked vege for lunch. :D

Oh. And I studied for 12 hours straight for just 2 chapters of economics. Right in between short breaks where I finally painted my nails and washed my make up brushes. :) Didn't managed to go for a run though since I barely have time to eat.

Have to go to bed soon, more like now, since I have to wake up early for a 8am driving class. Didn't know what I was thinking when I agreed to that. :/

Nightsssss-toooo.

#3

2012-01-03T22:29:00.005+08:00

Chinese New Year is coming sooon and I am cooking the reunion dinner this year. Technically not cooking, y'know, steamboat, how much cooking does it needs. Lol. And I kinda like that the family come together and sit around a table and eat. That's true family warmth. :/

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We are living in such a modern world with advanced technology surrounding us, it's hard to live without my phone. My phone is having its monthly moodswing where it turns super cranky and crazy. I can't use the 3G or wifi anywhere or anyhow and its making me mad!

A duper long and boring day in school today. Nothing exciting happened exactly, just that I finally satisfied my craving for the mushroom yi mian in school which I had since last year. You tell me, how awesome is that! :D

Anyway, I have been trying to keep a healthy lifestyle by exercising more, eating healthier food and sleeping early. For the dieting part, I am trying very extremely hard to keep on track, but I get hungry really easily! :/

RAWR.

I'm suppose to do some studying when I get home today. But since I reached home super late due to taking a supposingly express 74 which in turn, turns out to not be so expressed. Meh. So I have another long day at home tomorrow.

Trying to accomplish the following tomorrow:

3 chapters of economics lecture
Do the accounting question
Paint my nails
Wash my makeup brushes
Go for a run

Very ambitious I know, but I am fighting against time. Shall go and sleep now. I am super duper tired and I seriously can't think now.

NIGHTS!

#2

2012-01-02T21:05:00.002+08:00

Awesome picture when we are still young.

Look at howwwwwwwwwwwww dark I am! So grossss!

Hahaha.

Today has been pretty slackish. I studied but I didn't study that much so, I'm feeling kinda guilty now. But at least I went for a run which was good cause that's the furthest I have ran so far. 3.7km non-stop. Feel damn good after that. Not really a far distance for people who run constantly but still, it's a new remarkable goal for me.

School is starting tomorrow and I'm dreading the 8.30am lesson. :( But lunch after my morning class will be good. Finally gonna satisfy my craving.

Yayssssssssss! Good night! :D

#1

2012-01-01T22:23:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year. :):)

Can't believe 2011 passed so quickly, is like yesterday I was still in Poly and now I'm in a new school environment, struggling to study. Wow.

So 2011 has been a pretty eventful year. Shitty stuff happening and peopl

e moving out of my life etc etc. This made me grow up and be a stronger person. I broke down twice last year, just in the month of December. Very embarrassing I know but, maybe I had been strong for awhile. A break is all I need.

2012 will be a better year, especially with the Taiwan trip in February confirmed. I am sooooooo excited for it. :) Oh well, I started my 1st day of 2012 by catching up on my studies. Feeling a tad bit stress that I have so much to do but so little time left. Plus I really don't want to stay up late since I am trying to adopt this healthy diet thing. Ah, stressful that's it.

But anyway, yesterday's countdown was great. Not really count down, cause by the time I reached home, there's only 10 minutes left to 12am, so I just watched tv. And of course you can't start the new year without alcohol, sooooooooo..... :D

I just found out that I have a lot of flower-y things in my room. Or more like, I have a lot of flowers in my room.

Oh and I think it would be really funny to show how oily and gross my face look like after I removed my make up. Heh.

Ending the post withhhhhhhh a picture of me and my sister! :D

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

2011-12-26T19:41:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

A day late though but still, its the thoughts that counts.

Anyway this Christmas has been really great as in, I get to attend Ally's family christmas party which is something I have never experience before. So that's something new. :D Plus, I had my first ever candlelight dinner ever. But I'm really lazy to upload the pictures now.

I'm laying in bed now with a very bad flu. Hungry and sick. I crave kimchi soup now.

Oh well,

BYEEEE.

2011-11-13T17:13:00.000+08:00

Gotten my first ever pair of Dr Martens.

Heheheh.

2011-10-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

As much as people think we should live for ourselves, we are actually living for others. We often try to live up to people's expectations and we tend to get influenced by how others are feeling or acting. Why is that the case? Social norms? Acting to people's expectation, living up to society's expectations?

I seriously don't know.

How many times do we actually get to live for ourselves?

I sincerely wish everyone would be happy, so when one influence another, it's actually happy feelings. I sincerely wish everyone would be truthful to one another, so when one tell another thing, it's actually truth others need to hear. I sincerely wish everyone would be able to live for themselves, so when they are living for themselves, they would be happy and so when they are happy they will tell others the truth, and this world would be a happy place and everyone living in this world would be happier.

People tend to hide negative feelings to themselves.

I sound like I am depressed, but no I am not. I am just enlightened how one's mood can be influenced by people around them.

2011-10-13T13:55:00.002+08:00

I found my new favourite song.

Mindy Gledhill - I'm Ok.

I couldn't catch my breath. And you haven't seen me yet
I turn to hide. I caught your eye
Your face had that telling look. Reading me like a book
All my mysteries. Blown in the breeze. And my face smiles
But inside I'm a mess and I can't find the words

I'm okay, I'm okay
Just as long as you stay far away from me baby
We're so yesterday
So don't say that you love me tomorrow, if you don't today

The sound of your voice too soon, opens my deepest wounds
As you move towards me in these october leaves
And I know just what you'll say
And you're still ten feet away
We've been here before, We've walked through this door
And with every footstep. I feel your arms pull me in

I'm okay, I'm okay
Just as long as you stay far away from me baby
We're so yesterday
So don't say that you love me tomorrow, if you don't today

Just when I think I'm right
I dig deep inside, and say right to your face

I'm okay, I'm okay
Just as long as you stay far away from me baby
We're so yesterday
So don't say that you love me tomorrow, if you don't today

Don't say, so don't say
Don't you dare play this game
You can turn right around and keep walking away
Don't tell me you'll love me tomorrow if you don't today.

Yeah, sometimes is hard.

2011-10-13T13:46:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, it last in love.

but

Sometimes, it hurts instead.

We could have had it all.

2011-09-24T21:37:00.001+08:00

One of the best advice given by my friend. Have been thinking a lot and now I have put this as the wallpaper on my phone to constantly remind myself.

Love yourself more first, so you will be happier when you love others.

Today is Sunday, tomorrow is Monday.

2011-09-11T11:46:00.001+08:00

Slightly less messy than the last few days. It's only the third week of school and we have million of tests coming up? What??

So today is Sunday and I refuse to do my tutorials and read up for my classes tomorrow. May I know, how do you do tutorial for a topic that haven't been taught yet? Seriously?

Hah. Okie. I downloaded the blogger apps on my iPhone, been looking for such apps since forever! So now I'm trying out! Heh.

Worst purchase

2011-08-31T23:31:00.002+08:00

Today was an awesome day UNTIL I decided to make the worst purchase of my life. If you are thinking how could buying something be THAT bad, yes it was THAT bad. I just spent $25 on something that I used for just 25 minutes, or maybe even less than that. No joke. Seriously.

So it was my fault cause due to my obsession for my melody iphone button sticker stuff, which you can't find it anywhere at all, I saw this really cute my melody screen protector kind of thing and y'know what, I bought it, for $15 bucks. Okie, that was not the best part. The best part is that the salesperson decided that my current screen protector has too many scratches, he introduced me to get a new one which I thought, yeah it will be perfect to get a total "new" look on the phone so I paid $10 for it.

TO MY HORROR, the screen protector was some lousy shit ass quality which did not stick to my phone AT ALL. Yes it didn't. And so the melody screen protector thing came off as well. And y'know what, it didn't work at all after we went back to the shop to get it fixed.

The conclusion is that, DON'T TRUST ANYTHING FROM SOME LAME ASS SHIT SHOP YOU SEE RANDOMLY ON THE STREET. Pissed. Rueychyi went to buy another screen protector from mini toons for $7 bucks and what can we expect....

Yes, it came off AGAIN.

And it suck. Anyway, it looked like a bimbo phone with the melody screen protector on, so it's better to rip it off. And if you didn't realise, I am being sarcastic.

Can you sleep tonight?

2011-08-30T23:05:00.002+08:00

I don't know since when, I have been relying on medication to fall asleep. Whether it is cough medicine or flu tablets, I will usually take it so I will be able to sleep at night. This is really bad and I really want to put a stop to this because it's unhealthy and is something wrong to do.

There is something bothering me inside which I can't seems to figure out what it is. This is the something that is causing me not being able to sleep at night. I don't know. It may be stress, I really don't know. But living in such a stressful and fast-paced environment where perfect sometime may not even get you anywhere, I should have the rights to not be able to sleep at night. Heh.

I think it is more of a psychological problem. I just think too much and add on unnecessary stress and burden in me. I have high expectations for myself, so sometime when I can't achieve that certain standard, I tend to think, especially late in night, what did I do wrong, what else should I do to be better.

Ah, unnecessary stress.

I should slow down, take a break and go somewhere else. :/

I don't want to jinx it but, I hope I can fall asleep like a normal person tonight.

Back for the second time!

2011-08-30T17:32:00.004+08:00

Okie, I am bored at home and seriously, I have nothing to do except studying. :/ So maybe, I thought I should start to blog again.

School started 1 week ago and uh, trying to adapt to the new environment which is, kinda stressful and weird cause I'm mostly going everywhere alone. Things will be better I know. But anyway, I kinda miss all my friends who are busy with their own stuff now.

People change, everyone is changing with every seconds passing by, y'know, due to everything they are going through now with their life. So, we gotta accept the changes people are making, whether it is good or bad. If someone changes for the worst, then we just gotta say that they are probably not worth our time to befriend with anymore?

Idk.

I have million things in my head now and I don't know can I ever put it properly across without it seems like I am offending anybody? Idk.

Okie. This blog post is in a mess.

Uh oh, I should start bringing my camera everywhere I go. Heh :D

Come back soon Ally!

2011-07-13T23:21:00.003+08:00

Just sent my bestest best friend off to follow her dream and what God has planned for her.

All the bestttt Ally and I misssssssss you! ):

PS; I cried like shit when I read your letter! ):

Example of stupidity of some stupid people

2011-06-10T00:10:00.003+08:00

You know what makes the elderly hate being sent to a old folks home, I think partially because of the treatment they will get there. If I am an old folk now, I would rather depend on myself, even when I can't, than to get abuse by some random strangers in a old folks home.

Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with people nowadays? No common sense or feelings that we SHOULD NOT abuse an old person? I mean, are you fucking stupid or? Need money to educate yourself? If you don't have the compassion and heart to serve somebody, then don't fucking work in a old folks home. And even if you hate your job to the fucking core, at least don't abuse them.

Hello, no one force you to work in a old folks home and take care of elder older person. Since you choose this fucking path yourself, then treat this job with respect and try do your very best. Wtf is wrong with you? Abuse an old person, just because they can't retaliate? I say, you should have a taste of your own medicine.

The news just show that two random person, decided to work in a old folks home, and abuse some older person. Fuck you. That's all I can say, fuck you. I may not like to serve others, but I think I would do a better job than you. Seriously, fuck you.

I don't know why, but I feel heartbroken and sympathetic towards older people, especially those who are old but still try to live their life to the fullest. I respect them from the bottom of my heart. Normally, those who don't want people to help, deserve our help the most. So, with this incident happening, I feel fucked up for the elderly who got humiliated and abused. I think the two random "nurse" should have a taste of their own medicine? Strip them naked and make them sit outside the old folks home for 30 minutes. And when they scream and shout, slap them. And then throw them onto the ground when 30 minutes is up.

How about that?

Seriously! Fuck you two, again.

I'm going to be a volunteer when my job contract end. I will try my best to help people who are in need, especially the elderly. This world can only be a better place to live in when people care about one another, not abusing each other.

So fuck you two again. Karma will catch up with you, but I believe someone will take the place of karma and punish you first. Afterall, you deserve much more than karma.

From the bottom of my heart, I disrespect you two, those that decide to abuse helpless people.

So, fuck you again.

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I still feel pissed but at least I feel better now.

But I still have to say, fuck you.

2011-06-09T14:54:00.002+08:00

Today is an uber slack plus sleepy day. Have been staring at the computer screen since this morning and I'm predicting that I would have to continue this boring work routine till the end of today, and maybe tomorrow. Seriously, 20 more days till the end of this work contract. You cannot believe how excited I'm. Hoho. :)

I can't wait to go home for now. I miss my bed so much!!!!!! :(

Tuesday is like Monday

2011-06-07T18:56:00.002+08:00

I changed my hair parting. I got kinda bored with my center part already but with your fringe parted to the side, its like irritating, especially for my eyes. Aye, whatever laaaaa.

I am so bored and tired from work. I seriously hope the contract end quickly. I want to stay at home and sleep the day away for 1 week before I start to regret and realize the importance of working and earning money. Meh. Eventually we will get out and work, but seriously, must we start now?

Now off to my duper light dinner. Oh, I'm on a diet, but i just snacked on a packet of seaweeds... Mmm.

Sunday + Monday Blues

2011-06-05T14:03:00.004+08:00

It took me one whole freaking day to upload these few pictures and seriously, what's wrong with blogger? Rawr.

Anyway the whole of last week has been a "sick" week. Falling sick, cramps. Basically the whole of last week suck. Heh. But anyway, 4 more weeks till the end of contract and I can't wait to not work again!! :D

Some pictures from a duper random Malaysia trip for their Seoul Garden. Apparently, its supposed to be cheaper, but the food variety, nahh. And we bought black charcoal bread! Haven't tasted bread so soft in a long while!

Okay. I have to go to bed and be prepared to go to work in less than 6 hours. This suck.

Monday blues.

Mixed entry

2011-05-31T21:31:00.002+08:00

I played with my makeup recently and it turned out pretty good and it was fun. It's weird how make up can change a person's appearance. I looked completely different with tons of make up on and when my face is like bare.

Anyway, work has been mmmm. I can't wait to get out of this contract and go back to school, no matter where I am heading to. Till this point of time, I still can't decide what I really want to study. Hah. FYI, I have already submitted my application. Heh.

Ah. I am out of ideas. Pictures first.

It was a busy day for me on graduation day. Tons of places to go, tons of things to do. Movies at that night with Alex. I haven't been to the movie since I don't know when. Heh.

Had Sakae for lunch that afternoon. Pictures time! :D

Sooooooooooooooooo.... I am tired and I need to sleep. Is it me or is the 9pm show on channel 8 kind of boring? Oh well, its just the first episode.

Random thoughts

2011-05-31T11:36:00.002+08:00

I really like this phrase I came out with.

I may be more suceesful than the others but just that they don't know.
Like I have friends and a life?

:)

Some people really have no life. They have one goal and they go for it.
For what? To use their accOmplishments and put others down.
Do they have friends or a life? No.
Then are they successful? I don't think so.

Anyway, don't ever look down on people or doubt their ability.
Be careful, you might have retribution.

2011-05-30T07:49:00.002+08:00

Good morning guys! I'm back posting while waiting for time to pass. Currently in the office now doing nothing. Work starts at 8 but I always arrive 30 minutes earlier which... Uh.

Okay I have forgotten to bring my charger today which means no active viewing of random sites on my phone today. Suck!

2011-05-29T20:57:00.001+08:00

New Chapter of Life.

Argh. Back to work tomorrow.

Another work blog post

2011-05-26T15:35:00.000+08:00

I wanted to act pro and find an application on iTunes which will allow me to upload pictures and blog directly there. After searching for probably 30 mins, I can't find a single shit for this kind of convenient blogging action. I thought technology has improved, yet blogger doesn't allow me to upload picture or blog directly there using my mobile.

Argh. I always get inspiration or motivation to blog a tiny blog post when I'm at work. Heh. :)

So just when I have decided to make my blog less boring by adding 1 picture of me, no application or website wants to work.

Anyway, work has been boring and slow. I finished my work too quickly and now I feel like sleepy! Replacement leave tomorrow, graduation tomorrow. Oh well.

I actually want to rave about this app I found on iTunes, but it choose not to work at the last minute. So....

I think I should stop to make this post look less wordy. 1hr 23 mins more to the end of work.

Oh oh oh. I just realized, is not that I hate hr or work, but heheeheh.....

Ramble fumble

2011-05-24T16:08:00.000+08:00

I am bored at work now and so I am blogging. That sound really irresponsible, like I'm blogging just because I am bored.

But anyway, after working here it makes me realize that I really don't like hr or probably in a boring, routine kind of work environment. Everyday you come at a specific timing and then go off at a certain time. All you do is to stare at your computer screen and seriously, do all the brainless work. Gawd, this makes me miss school a lot.

Will be graduating this Friday an then we will move on to another stage of life. Kind of given up hope on local universities. Blame no one but myself for not studying even harder and for not having the luck. Seriously, must the a level peeps score so well this time?!! Maybe I will just enroll myself into a private uni next year. Take a break now man.

But anyway, I can't wait to end my work contract, decide what I'm gonna do in my next stage of life, do something I like and to travel the world. Life's too short to be bothered by commitments like studying hard, finding a job and earning money. Yup it's important but I think, doing things you like, especially when we are still young, should be the priority of our life.

Oh well, not everyone think the same way... Not that I'm saying studying is not important, I like studying but I think it's all about balancing out. Soooooo... Happy Tuesday everyone. I should stop rambling.

Hello BKK again.

2011-05-22T14:29:00.014+08:00

I am back blogging because I have nothing to do almost everyday, so why not just start blogging again? :D

Just came back from BKK yesterday. The trip was great, especially with 2 days straight of massage and y'know, being away from the cyber world, spending more time with ourselves. Great uhhuh.

Anyway, JJ and I don't really dare to eat any Thai food or whatsoever, so we spent 3 nights eating fast-food. First night was KFC, then A&W's family meal, the last night was the worst/best. Family meal from KFC which was meant to be for 4 - 5 pax and a foot long sandwich from Subway. Don't even know how we do it but oh well.

Can't wait to end my contract then go overseas again. Don't like to stay in Singapore, argh, so boring.

2010-11-24T22:27:00.002+08:00

So school started prolly 3 weeks ago and well, pretty tiring with the crazy timetable, additional 4 hours of Calculus class each week.

As if school wasn't boring enough.

No complains, I asked for it.

But anyway, life suck and I have been slacking all these while. Why do I not feel the pressure or short of time to finish work?

Okay so tomorrow is the 25th,

so Happy 2.5 years babeee. (:

2010-11-14T02:33:00.001+08:00

BUSY LIFE.

Back in 20 hours time! :D

2010-10-31T21:32:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we can't control what is happening around us.

Sometimes we go with the flow too much.

Sometimes we refuse to stand up for ourselves.

That's why all the time, we are the one that feel sad for the bad things other people do.

2010-10-29T20:46:00.000+08:00

"so if you want peace, always be prepared for war..."

- gossip girl

My Saturday Night

2010-10-04T23:27:00.004+08:00

2010-09-19T22:33:00.002+08:00

Met the girls to talk crap about life today.

(:(:(:

My legs are constantly aching due to the killer heels I wore for the whole of yesterday.

& I wore wedges today. =/

So I will be back to work tomorrow, AGAIN.

Why does weekends pass so quickly and weekdays pass so slowly?

2010-09-10T22:55:00.001+08:00

New favorite pair of heels (:

2010-09-10T17:51:00.002+08:00

IPP kills me.

It has been a tiring first week of work. 8 more weeks to go. And I slept like a pig today to make up for the lack of sleep on the weekdays. Can't believe poly is going to end really soon.

What am I going to do next?

2010-09-05T12:47:00.000+08:00

START OF IPP TOMORROW!

I don't know what to feel! Hope all turns out well! :D

2010-08-31T22:44:00.002+08:00

In this world we live in, no one truly understands us, no one really care much about your presence. And in this world we live in, most of the time we are trying to be the top and the other times, we are thinking about how we are gonna achieve that.

One thing for sure, never to lose yourself.

I have been a bad friend. I think I really neglected tons of friends recently. Felt really bad from the bottom of my heart! =(

Anyway, exam period then to IPP. Ahhhh.

I think I will start being a better person this thursday, after I have a tons of time to reflect on myself. Or maybe not, cause, I have to pack my room, repaint my room and pack my room again! Heee.

2010-08-23T03:37:00.001+08:00

Not being able to sleep at the time I want is bad enough.

Now I am tired, but I can't get to sleep because I am afraid of I don't know what but something is bothering me. And I can't get to sleep.

Even if I switch on the laptop, allow a movie to play and I try to get to sleep, I can't. Like I have to focus on something then it stops my brain from thinking unnecessary stuff.

This is bad. Is there something wrong with me? I hate feeling this way.

2010-08-12T12:28:00.003+08:00

As much as we think others are putting on a fake front when talking to you, being close to you and etc, why don't you step back and think, you are actually doing that as well.

You think you can hide? The world is a small place. (:

Its officially the start of study break, all thanks to the YOG. We all deserve a break from all the pile of shit work and projects we had to do for the last sem.

Exams and start of IPP!

I hate IPP. I can't wait for it to end.

Can you actually imagine, in less than a year time, I am graduating from poly. What the fuck am I going to do next?

I am so aimless.

19th

2010-08-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday to me! (:

i miss 2/2

2010-07-28T22:44:00.004+08:00

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

My secondary school besties x3 planned an advanced surprise birthday celebration for me by asking 19 strangers to wish me happy birthday & giving me clues to the next stopover so to collect more clues to reach the final destination.

Plan failed but still it was one of the more memorable ones since we had to walk out the long dark stretch of scary road from marina barrage to the main road! Thank god for taxi! :D

Love you guys! :D

xoxo friends forever.

2010-07-20T23:53:00.001+08:00

hey, friends are always more important than your fucking boyfriend.

Always fucking remember that!

- cassandra

2010-07-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

http://twitter.com/backtofive

School day again tomorrow. =(

2010-07-11T13:12:00.000+08:00

Hey, I am busy!

Tomorrow is wednesday!

2010-07-06T22:17:00.003+08:00

You know, that one chinese song that really touch you, from the btm of your heart!

回憶過去　痛苦的相思忘不了

為何你再來　撥動我心跳

愛你怎麼能了　今夜的你應該明瞭

緣難了　情難了

=)

2010-07-05T17:01:00.003+08:00

I sat down in front of my laptop, finished up all the stuff to do in an hour and I stoned. I realised I have to study CRM(?) and then I received a text message.

JJ will be coming to pick me up in a bit and we are going out to do work for his dad.

Hey, that's my life.

Backdated

2010-07-01T20:46:00.002+08:00

Okay, this is from miki's birthday. Super back-dated around 2 months ago! I was browsing Rueychyi's facebook to see if she uploaded pix from 29th but instead I found this!

Love you peeps! :D

Happy Birthday RueyChyi

2010-06-29T02:30:00.002+08:00

A picture speaks a thousand words! :D

(more pix to come)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUEYCHYI!

LOVE YOU! (:

25th.

2010-06-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

Happy 25th Month on the 25th! (:

Kbox + Staying over tonight.

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2010-06-22T19:25:00.001+08:00

Chance.

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I really don't like to take public transport, especially the bus, not because I have to take the car or I am acting like a princess or whatever shit. But because, I really don't like to see arrogant people "snatching" needy old people's seat and yet I don't have the courage to stand up for them.

Life suck.

Small update.

2010-06-21T23:08:00.003+08:00

I aim to finish my Entre report by tonight, that is if I can. If not, I hope to finish at least the logo part and the market analysis part.

I had fun today with my CRM group members while doing mystery shopping for our projects. Heh.

Oh and I walked home today. That reminds me, I have to go and bath NOW!

Shitty saturday.

2010-06-19T14:50:00.003+08:00

That's how I am really feeling. Shitty + troubled + stress and all that crap together. I am hungry and I feel like shit now. I conclude today is a very bad bad bad day.

I feel that things are getting better now and at the same time getting worst. Fine, maybe I should take one step at a time and not to think too much but go with the flow!

So actually projects are not the one that's killing me but other shit (which I have yet to find out what) is. Life sucks.

2 father's day dinner this weekend. (: Good food come to me!

Too little time

2010-06-18T02:57:00.004+08:00

First week of holidays ending in 3 days time. Bad.

So little time, so many things to do.

6 reports to complete
A website to create
A poster to be done
Getting 100 people to do my Entre survey
Study for SAT
Having fun, taking a break

Played around with my blog template. No idea how it ended up like that, but it looks better now. Haha.

3.28am and I am not asleep yet! Bad bad bad!

2010-06-15T16:27:00.005+08:00

So you know, holidays is the major finish up all the shit projects 2 weeks. And seriously, I am way behind my schedule for the stupid things I have planned to do. And SERIOUSLY, I don't have much time to do any other shit than project and to be honest, I am actually tired from all the shit since I didn't have enough time to rest well.

Tell me, how much more fucking time do YOU want to waste? Its just a fucking movie for fuck sake and since we have been to 3 fucking places to find that fucking movie and there is seats we want and you told me to fucking find another back up movie so we can watch and there I suggested and all you fucking do is to whine the fuck out of nothing.

Why don't YOU find the fucking back up movie and suggest it even before you ask me to fucking suggest any fuck?

And you still ask why the fuck I am angry? Cb. I am unreasonable, so what?

Seriously? Fuck off. Cb.

Why can't some people just fucking understand what other people want in life. Sometimes, just fucking stand in other people's fucking shoes.

Fucking tired from this fucking shit. This just another no shit stuff but seriously, it gets on my fucking nerves.

2010-06-15T10:27:00.001+08:00

Hello. Bye

Make me wanna die.

2010-06-12T13:54:00.002+08:00

Sushi/M&Ns/Home-cooked Spag/Calbee potato chips

I am hungry ttm. Period.

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OMG!

The I-want-to-buy-furnitures-&-redecorate-my-room feeling is back! This is not a good thing I tell you! =/

Hello holidays!

2010-06-12T01:50:00.002+08:00

Okie. Start of holidays today and seriously, holidays are not holidays anymore. Tons of projects coming up and with CRM ICA 3 coming soon, 6 lectures, kill me please?

Anyway, starting to feel that business school is not the place for me. I like what I am studying, but I don't love what I am studying. Not that much passion in studying hrm and how to manage a business.

I would rather do arts and probably the most closely related biz course I ever want to study will be economics. I don't know. Sometimes I feel I just wasted 3 years of my life on nothing. But it will be too late to quit now.

And what if it's too late to start all over again? Okie. I don't know.

Projects are driving me nuts.

Holiday in a week time!

2010-06-06T13:26:00.001+08:00

2 more ICAs and School's out! :D

2 week holidayyy! :D

JUST WANT TO SAY,

2010-05-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

THINGS

WERE SO MUCH

SIMPLER

BACK THEN!

Happy 2nd Anniversary.

2010-05-25T23:12:00.002+08:00

School has been pretty hectic and stuff so I don't really have much time to relax. Seriously, weekends are meant for finishing up lame projects and for this long weekend, it's like a blessing to me cause I would have enough time to finish up all my undone tutorials and start mugging for ICAs.

Oh, I am starting to use "mugging" all over again.

Anyway, Happy 2nd to JJ.

Thanks for the everything you have done and thanks for the IPOD touch! Hoho :D

But anyway, my surprise was to filled my room with balloons to surprise him and stuff but the plan didn't work out that well.

Okie Bye. I am tired and I am having a very bad sore throat! =(

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No matter what you do, don't ever lose yourself.

Least expected!

2010-05-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

Love them ! :D

Thursday, I'm in love.

2010-05-19T00:51:00.002+08:00

I am thinking of moving to a new space for writing but seriously, I can't bear to leave this behind me. Haha. I can't bear to leave a blog behind me and leave for a better space? Like seriously? Sometimes I feel like I'm a joke. :)

Too much going on this week. The most hectic and stressful week of my life. Dateline submission for projects, tutorials and lecture revision. Who ever said poly is the easy way out, seriously, you should go and kill yourself.

Side note: I think I am saying SERIOUSLY too much, like SERIOUSLY!

Hahahhaha.

Oh you know, sometimes you just need to hear something nice and encouraging from somebody else. It's really nice and comforting in a way or so. At least, I feel less..... stress and ?????

I am still as awkward as ever. Hoho.

12.54am now! I have a 9am class tomorrow so this is very bad! I need to sleep now! Ciaos! :D

Lovee.

2010-05-11T16:41:00.001+08:00

Finally rainedddd after the longest period of hot shitty sun. Anyway, having ice-cream on a rainy day, tell me what's life man. Hehhh. (:

Just don't give it up.

2010-05-05T22:22:00.005+08:00

I was thinking of leaving this space, but on second thoughts, nahhhh. heh.

So year 3 has started and the first day was pretty awkward and today is the third day of school and I am still feeling awkward. I think its me, really. Like, I allow myself to be in that extremely awkward situation (which maybe doesn't even exist) and I refuse to step out of my comfort zone or something. Extremely irritating but ya, I don't know how I am ever gonna overcome something like that, but... Aya.

Today is Miki's birthday. Happy birthday loveeeee. (:

Crazy day today cause I had to wake up at 5am to prepare to head down to Chinatown for the mini surprise which in turn cause me to be late for lecture! =/ And in the end, Rueychyi and Miki skipped work and school to accompany us NYP. Heh.

Headed to TP after school. Fun fun fun!

Omg, thursday tomorrow only? I am tired from school already. I want a longer holidayyyyyyyyy! Oh oh oh, Genting again during either this or next month! Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Just don't give up I'm working it out.
Please don't give in, I won't let you down.

I really like the lyrics of the song.

2010-04-28T23:06:00.001+08:00

Monophobia?

big word hur.

secret

2010-04-26T22:57:00.002+08:00

The movie 不能说的秘密 brought back fucking lots of memories.

Like, seriously?

Holiday 1.

2010-04-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

Pix from genting. Too many to upload if I were to upload all. So just a few. Okie, I am thinking of going of another holiday soon!

Call me crazy or what but I don't wna stay in Singapore anymoreeee. =( Too hot, too boring.

Aya, life's too short. =/

People should be less pretentious.

2010-04-18T23:57:00.004+08:00

hehehhe. my cute fish! :D

One thing for sure, I am glad, I am going back to class. To somewhere less complicated and a better environment to be in. No matter if things has changed or whatsoever, is something we have to learn and go through in life. Plus, I have gone through so many changes in classes, school, environment alone, this would be nothing new. And I know, if people who would be truthful to you and not pretend to be someone whom they are not in front of you, then those are someone who really deserve to be your friends.

I always cherished my friendship with people whom has always been true to me, and I am really looking forward to learn new ways of communicating with people, and all the very important life values.

TEP really taught me a lot about how to communicate with people and something really important I have learnt is to never ever judge anyone based on first impression.

I should not be so easily influenced anyway. (:

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What's with the very wordy, emotional post? I don't know. Anyway, TEP has officially come to an end for others but not GIO. Tomorrow will be stock take day and tuesday would be the official handover day and I am off from year 2, from TEP. I will miss this "journey" a lot, y'know can't deny that I have learnt a lot from there. Not all the technical aspects of running a business or writing a proposal but ya, about life.

Aya.

Life's short. We should stop trying too hard to fit in, to pretend to be someone whom we are not. Just be happy. Ya. So true.

Goodbye Year 2!

2010-04-16T22:42:00.001+08:00

Y'know I had fun while it lasted. Can't believe TEP has ended just LIKE THAT?! I mean, it just feels like yesterday I just attended the briefing for MSC. Like, everything is happening so quickly.

Quoted from FY, "We can't walk around in the shopping arcade like we owned it anymore!"

Kinda sad in a way but I can't wait to get back to school to STUDY! Mixed feeling about that! Whatever it is, I am craving for ice creammmmmm!

And I haven't had dinner yet! Should I go out now? Or should I stay? FML, I can't decide even for the smallest things in my life. Seriously, FML! =(

Nature.

2010-04-14T12:58:00.001+08:00

Good hair day with an awkward face. LOL! Hello people, sometimes you got to let nature take its course. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Think positively. (:

Mamee is lorveee.

2010-04-13T22:51:00.002+08:00

Mamee is lorveeee. :D I love mamee and I am trying to restraint myself from eating the fourth pack. Gotta save for days when I feel really hungry and I have no stuff to eat. =O

Anyway, tomorrow is my off day cause I have to go back to school on monday for stock take. Booohoooo. =( But still, yay cause I got to rest and know what, its the last week of MSC and part of me can't wait to get back to class and part of me wished that TEP didn't end that quickly.

I am scared of the awkward feeling in class. Hope nottttt! And I wna go on a holiday. Have been collecting different brochures. Oh wellllll.

I really have to eat another pack of Mamee. Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Did I mention? I hate period. First the cramp, then the bathing shit. I bathed for like the fourth time today. And now, I am going to bath again. =/

Short short short.

2010-04-10T20:12:00.001+08:00

Time to repaint my room, buy a new table and prepare for the new school year. Year 3, time flies and soon I will be graduating from poly soon.

Should I take SAT now or after poly? FML. =(

Can't believe it.

2010-04-08T20:48:00.000+08:00

Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends
High school never ends

Year 2 ending in another 1 week time! (:

tired ttm.

2010-04-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

What colour should I paint my room this time? Should I change my bed?

Yes. Wasting money AGAIN!FML!

I am sleeping early tonight. I think.

always remember.

2010-04-02T01:05:00.001+08:00

don't talk bad about people cause once you leave after talking to them about someone, they will just start talking bad about you.

something I really need to learn and reflect about. Look at others with an open heart. (:

Bad day.

2010-04-02T00:16:00.002+08:00

Now I have a swollen eyes. So swollen that I walked around with the sunglasses on. =/