And I'm pretty sure what I'm gonna say or might say later will be the most truthful opinions I could ever give in my entire life, just because I'm in a really bad mood now. Usually, I give the most truthful opinions when I'm in a bad mood because I don't really give a shit about how other people feel about me. Seriously, get a life and stop judging people.
Right. My mood is literally like a rollar coaster ride today. Upz and downz. Been thinking and not thinking a lot about the ultimate one and only things in life that would bother me the most - FRIENDS.
I think I have been a pretty awesome friend when I really treat that person as friend and also, once been the worst friend one could ever have. Either way, I had my goods about being a good friend and karma for being a bad one.
Only in friendships, I believe in karma. What I have done to others, one day will come back to me. I just don't know when. Karma.
But when I truthfully tell you, I treat you as my good friend, I really do, from the bottom of my freaking heart and not saying for the sake of saying. There's not really a definition on how I think my friend should be like. If we clique we clique, and if we don't, then too bad for you. So I won't really define who who who as a suitable "candidate" for my friend.
However, every living creature should have the common sense to know WHAT YOU SHOULD DO AND WHAT YOU SHOULDN'T DO. Like, don't cross the line with your words, if you are going to get offended by saying this, why do you even want to let it out of your freaking mouth. You shouldn't make empty promises. Don't say you will always be there but you don't. Like say say only, I also know. -.- Oh, DON'T EVER USE SOMEONE. Please, get a life. Using someone to get somewhere, seriously? Brainless fuckers.
All these don't bother me that much that would irritate me to the max. The one thing which seriously pisses me off is that, people take others for granted. You think your friends will always be there and so you don't have to care any longer, bother to talk to them or ask them out? Or now that you found someone better and so you know what, you move on to the other newer better friend that you have? Honestly?
I hate being taken for granted. I hate it when people say, our friendship will never change no matter where I am, what I do or who I'm with, we'll be best friend forever. Seriously? I believe that such things happen but right now, NOBODY BOTHERS ANYMORE.
Everyone just care about themselves. Everyone just want something or someone better and they move on. Yeah. I am being negative about life now but seriously, how positive can you be when this is the truth, this is what I see in people.
I think I have no friends. I think when I'm down, I don't have anybody to fall back on. I think I'm saying this is not because I really don't have any friends, or anyone to talk to, is that right now when I think back, how many people I have once told that they are my good and true friends whom I trust and likes to be around with have left or move on to someone better, intentionally or unintentionally. Is it me? Or what's wrong with the world?
My true friends now, probably 1 or 2. Don't even need 2 hands to count. Hah.
This is life.
I don't do well groups. I like one to one interaction or when I'm out with like just one friend a time. Only during that time people are able to catch up. Sometimes I feel empty in a big group of people cause people feel left out. I feel left out.
But oh well, this is life.
I have tried so hard to reconnect with so many people, one to one, but nobody cares, nobody is willing to do the same like we have done before. Do you even still remember what I have done for you or this friendship or all you care now is your new friends?
Everybody move on as time pass by. This is really life.
This goes out to everyone. Whether you are now my friend, once my friend or never my friend.