#119

I have been so bad with this blogging everyday goal that I have set for myself for this year. I think I am just going to give up blogging everyday but blog occasionally when there are fun things that happening in my life. I finally had some time to spare today to do my own stuff other than the routine lifestyle I lead, waking up studying, studying and more studying. Especially with exams 3-4 days away, I do not want to think so much about anything.

I don't remember when all these pictures are taken. So I am just posting all the unposted pictures in my camera.

Basically I am going through a drastic change in my family and my life. I recently lose someone who is kinda close to me in a kind of a dramatic way. I have never imagined something so dramatic would ever happen, neither have I ever imagined that I would lose someone that close to me. I can't wait for 2012 to be over, this year has been a really bad year.

Throughout this whole experience, I just realized that life is about so much more thing other than being so sad and pessimistic and negative about life. Nothing is more important than your own mental and physical health. Especially mental health, you have to learn how to cope with your expectations and stress and you must know when you expect something, something may not come to you. And if one day you ever feel that no one love and care about you, you are wrong. Your parents, your family definitely love and will always be there for you even though they don't show. Don't give up your life because of your own perception of nobody loving you, its wrong.

No matter what, life goes on.

I used to have really high expectations of myself for this upcoming exam. I strive to get first class honours and I have the mentality that if I don't get this, I am a failure. But now, whether it's a first class, a second upper or maybe a just pass, it doesn't matter THAT much any more. All I want is everybody beside me to happy and healthy and that I am happy and that's all that really matters.

Life's too short to be so focused on one task, one thing, one event or one person. Life's about so much more and there are many things you have yet to discover. So give up being negative and sad, start being happy and live your life. There should be no pressure, no stress, no nothing that should get you down cause there's no time for you to mourn or be sad or be pressurized. Start spending time doing things that you want and you should do. Don't wait till there's no time left then you feel that you have regrets because eg, you haven't spend enough time with another person./ Tell the person you loved them etc.



May you now be in a better place, living a better life, being a happier person. I'm sorry for not spending enough time with you and not giving you enough attention to let you feel loved. This is my only regret in life now but it's okay, you are happier now.