I have been through/ experience a few things in life which is pretty major to me, things which made me feel like dying but I never really ever once have the thought of really going to commit suicide.
I don't know how people ever have the courage to say, "Okay, life has been pretty depressing so I have decided that I should end my life, shall go commit suicide now." Of course is not as comical as that but you know, along that line. HOW DO PEOPLE EVEN DO IT? How do people even have the heart to leave everything behind, your family, your trouble, your worries for people who are still living in this world and just go like that.
No matter how much trouble you have think you may have brought to your parents, your family, you are still a living person where in this world, there are people who is willing to love you and do whatever shit for you.
I get so mad that people choose not to cherish their life.
Whatever it may be, get well soon.