awkward

I hate this awkward feeling. Feel that I had lose something.

Hi all.

What a way.

Sleeping at such godly timing is already bad. Eating supper makes it worst, I AM NOT GNA EAT ANYTHING! I must restraint. But I am super hungry nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

I don't care. TOMORROW I AM GOING TO TURN IN AT 11PM LATEST.

My skin is getting from bad to worst. Seriously!

Or maybe I should sleep the whole day till tomorrow morning?



Shit I don't know. Cause I am hungry and my body clock is screwed and I am bored so I am posting like super lots posts in a row.

Crazier.

Skipped a beat. Totally. Seriously.

But not so much anymore.

My prom pix.

Crazier.

Seriously, It doesn't hurt so much, and it don't bring back that much memories anymore.

Like, it's gone. Almost gone.

I can feel it.

Last prom.

I am really jealous of people whom just had their prom. I mean, they have really nice dresses now and they are able to do really nice hairstyle and makeup. I remember my prom dress was, I don't really like it now and my make up look so overly done.

Oh yes, the killer heels that I wore was shit cause I just remembered, those were the heels that almost made me faint on the train. And did I mention, I felt how I felt when I used to wear these heels at prom everytime I put on those heels.

Pix of others at prom. Very NICEEE.

Aya, those days were......................................... Aya.

HOLIDAY AGAIN

My mirror broke while I am packing my room so I had to go out and get a mirror yesterday. But getting a mirror at Ikea leads to going to marina square for dinner at Just acia then to plaza sing's daiso. Intended to book BTT again but SSDC was not opened yesterday, sooooooo.....

I almost puke sitting in the car.

Holiday again. I don't know what to do. Most probably, sleep?

OUTERSPACE (:

Rarely see the desktop pix, I love outerspace (:! I don't know how I managed to live in such a room for the past few months. I sort of mix the study table with all the make up and studies stuff together. Kinda unbeliveable that I can sleep with dirty clothes lying around on the floor.

I mean, how did I do that?!

Whatever but I love my new room now! :D

This is my fav!

Always have been my favourite food ever! Craving for it so badly and I finally ate it! :D

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It really makes me think a lot. Like who I am today and who am I in the past? It feels like I have never changed. Looking around, I see everyone around me doing something that they really excel in and it really makes me think, what have I been doing all these while.

It feels like I have always been dreaming all these while. Like, I don't know. Someday, all these have to come to a stop and you know, it will never ever be the same again. Like, all these never happened. Everything come and go so quickly.

Random. Totally random.

Probably should go check out some universities overseas. I think I need a change in environment plus, I don't think I will go to any universities in Singapore unless SMU. I really only LOVE SMU.

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I feel terrible. And I felt how I felt so many years ago.

HAPPY DAY

HEY, TODAY IS A FUN DAY!
I AM HAPPY!

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Totally random

All I can ever think of now is, WARDROBE WARDROBE AND WARDROBE! I feellllllllll shitty cause I am so DAMN excited about it. Seriously, no words can express how EXCITED I am feeling inside. Okay, I am so super excited even while I am typing this! YES! This is HOW excited I am! HAHAHHAHAHA.

I am going new moon. I know I am soooooooooo behind time with the books and stuff. But aya, I just started developing the interest to read. But I don't know if I should finish the book cause I don't know what time I want to go to school tomorrow. I have presentation at 12, but I don't know if I should go to school early or should I wait till 11 plus to go to school. Seriously, I don't know.

Some random thoughts, sooooooooo bye! :D



PS; Today is one of the less gloomy and moody day of the week. (:

I looked like an alien!

I think I looked like an alien again! HAHAHA. I love pictures when I looked like an alien or something weird, it always makes me laughhh! Oh, can't believe next weekend will be the start of holidays AGAIN for me. Can you actually believe it? Holidays are so packed together and know what, I don't have holidays after that till year 3. How cool is that, tell me!?

Anyway, yesterday I didn't get any sleep. Not that I don't want to sleep but I just can't get to sleep! The feeling suck cause you feel so tired and you just can't get to sleep. And I almost fainted today on the train. It was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo scary. I think is prolly due not eating anything for the whole day, but aya, the experience is like, so shitty scary!

I slightly curl my hair today with my flat iron! Cool right, cool right? But the curls didn't stay long so I kinda had messy hair for the whole day.

Okay, so what else do I have to grumble/complain/say about........................

Oh oh, I went to look for furnitures for my "walk-in" closet and I am EXTREMELY excited about building it already. HEHEHEHEHEHEH!

Blue eyeshadow.

Blue eyeshadow yesterday. Was kinda moody and sad yesterday, so I hope tomorrow will be a better day. Kinda tired but don't feel like going to sleep. Nothing to do in such a boring, I seriously can't wait to reorganize and decorate my room.

2 weeks holidays please don't come. I have ZERO things to do and no friends are free to go out. Everyone is schooling / having TEP, even people not in NYP! Shit boring life.

Updated.

Picture post. Pretty moody today. Nice weatheer, bad and hungry day! =(

到不了

我找不到我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好
我什麽都不要知不知道
若你懂我这一秒

我想看到我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠紧谨守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫
愿你看到

I almost forget how does it feels like to fall in love..

Today is such a cooling + nice + rainy + a lot a lot of I dont know what day. Went back to school for project meeting and it's always such a pity that when you are starting to know people around you, classical is then almost coming to an end.

Anyway, I have been backdated with my posts and it makes me don't feel like blogging anymore.

Today is such a nice day, especially when it's rainning. It makes me think a lot!

And right now, I am stuck on my customer service project. What is MoT?! If I don't understand this at all, I can't even start on anything! This is sooooooooo terrible, sucks and whatever.

I wish.......

I am gonna blog tonight. And I think thursday, friday, saturday and sunday won't be that great. Classical coming to an end, I don't feel happy.

WHY?

To do list again

I have strictly behind time, so I am gonna list down the to-do-list for today. =( Sounds so much like who I am during exams.

- Finish up PM project! (Extremely important!!!!!)
- Read up on CS project specs
- Start to do something important.
- Blog my first ever post after so long!
- Oh yes, THINK OF WAY TO EARN MONEY!

Ah well.

Talking about money.

I AM IN MY HOLIDAYS NOWWW. Not yet but no more tests for the rest of the 6 months of TEP. So is that a good or bad thing.

Today I received my first PILE of bills. I used to receive like one by one but today I received ONE WHOLE PILE of bills. It scares the shit out of me cause it makes me realise ho wmuch I have been spending on unnecessary stuff and this is bad. I think I am in a financial crisis now. Seriously, I have no more money left and this is really really really bad! =(

I feel stressed about money and stuff. Is it really something we have to worry about at our age? I know many people have started working and stop taking pocket money from their parents, how can they ever be so independent?!

I don't think I can ever survive and next month, I reckon, it's gonna be a pretty hard month for me trying to clear my bills.

I think this is seriously shitty.

Rubbish dumpppppp!

WHY IS MY ROOM ALWAYS IN A CONSTANT MESS?!



This is pissing me off but, I have to get it clean no matter what cause it seriously looks like dumping ground now. Clothes everywhere, shoes everywhere, makeup everywhere, wires & adapters everywhere, bags everywhere and etc etc.



How did I even sleep in here every night?!



I know I am typing all these out now cause I feel kinda irritated with the amount of money I have left for the month. Not to mention, JJ's b'dae here soon and now I feel more irritated because I have yet a plan A SINGLE SHIT!



This is getting more shitty and yes, I am also saving up for my new furnitures for my room. I am not asking anybody for money cause it's my frigging room and I want to earn it for myself. Truth to be told, I feel quite bad to constantly ask for money UNLESS I really cannot survive anymore.



But ayeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, I feel damn irritated now cause I want to earn money and yes, I work my ass off! And yes, this remind me of the shitty frigging shit person at my workplace.



He is getting on my nerves and at most, I will JUST QUIT THE FRIGGING JOB. No! I should get a job first, so career fair, come come hire meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!



I need short terms job like IT fair or whatever, I think they earn quite a lot even though it like super long working hours.



I am talking rubbishhhhh now.







No pictures cause I am lazy to take out charger for my camera and secondly I don't want another piece of nothing lying around somewhere in my room! Buzzzzzzzz.

Dont be so amazed.

How about showing you the most classic picture that I have found.... Seriously, I am truly amazeddddd tooo.
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HOW CAN YOU NOT BE AMAZED. I HAVE LONGGG HAIRR IN THE PASTTTT! :D

10 GEMS

Blogging in school from my new laptop! FYI, I have yet to study a single shit for tomorrow's ICA which is held at 8.30am. Know what, that means I have to be in school at around 8.10 so I won't be late. Soooooooooooooooooooooooo lame shit.

Okay, so let see, what is the 10 GEMS thing...

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Bye....

Updated.

Okay. I am not blogging much because I have been really busy. I don't know why I am so busy but I am really busy.

There is like 2 tests next week so I have to really study for it. I really don't know what to say. So byeee.